The Road Goes Ever On And On

Waiting on the Lord is so rewarding. It's beyond my words can say. For six years I've fought in this pursuit of this Arts degree. Now it's over. I don't have classes to go to anymore...nor do I have to be worried about the "due assignments". Weird how it feels empty. Never in my life have I had such mixed feelings: sad but happy, nervous but excited. I was told that there's always a new chapter to begin in this book of life. And now my turn has come after enthusiastically watching many people take on their journeys. The previous chapter is drawing its curtain, and the new one is about to begin.

I am now officially graduated, and about to set out to Chiang-Mai for my new job. It happened so fast that it is still magical. I applied for a job at Compassion International as a director's secretary two weeks ago. Iniatially, there was another spot that would fit me perfectly - Tour and Visit Specialist, but the position got close somehow. So I went for the secretary. I spent a whole month praying and seeking His will because I was really doubtful. The more I sought, the more I felt certain. There was one morning I read in Ezekiel 12, and this verse struck me with such harsh blow. It says, " 'Son of man, you dwell in the midst of a rebellious house, which has eyes to see but does not see, and ears to hear but does not hear;...' (Ezekiel 12:2)" And I personally felt like it was a desperate message from God to this stubborn and hard-headed daughter. There were so many signs earlier that I could allow myself to be sure but I denied them all. First of all, I hate to think of myself working to my bones but do nothing to benefit the others. My passion isn't to sign in at 8:00 and sign out at 5:00 nor to receive a big wad of cash at the end of the month. It may sound ridiculous, which undeniably it does...but...I had this tingly feeling that there should be something more than a mendatory schedule for my life. Second, I often found myself thinking about my countrymen who hardly have any opportunities in society at all. But most importantly, my heart is moved when I see these people so bound in the tide of traditional religious duties and system. Every time I see those on tv, I always hope that their chains would be broke.

I know that these signs aren't tangible but, if you are one of Jesus' followers, you do know what His voice is like. Yet i must admit that I was really hard on myself, and I never allowed any positive thought that I would get the job until I actually heard it. The interview on last Friday went well even though my performance on computer test was way too poor. Man, i've worked in the church office for four years but never have I had to make a statistic chart. I didn't even complete each task I was given at all. There were three programs: Words, Power Point and Excel. And I'd say my skills in these three programs are quite fine and efficient but making chart is a killer. So yah, I didn't expect much afterwards.Anyway, the interview questions were all about the applied position - secretary. But later on, I got to talk to one of the interviewers, who is also my friend. And she asked me if I would rather work as the tour and visit specialist because my skills are more qualified in this field. Of course I am! So without even expecting, I now have got a job at Compassion International as a tour and visit specialist. And man, it just fits me perfectly. I get to travel, take care and serve people while I serve the Lord. Plus, I am also involved in the children ministry that supports kids who lack opportunities. My job starts on July 1st. Actually, I don't start working right away because there'll be a fast-and-pray session in the morning, and the orientation in the afternoon. So it's gonna be a good preparation for me.

But in all these good news and excitement, I can't help feeling sad. It hit me hard this morning that I am actually leaving so many things behind: my beloved mom and sisters, the most amazing friends at church, GES and newsong, etc. There're so many memories out here. Yet I'm not moving far. Chiang-Mai is 9-hour bus ride, 12-hour train ride and 1-hour plane ride. I guess it's just moving out of my comfort zone that's scary but I have never been more excited. :) So wish me luck, guys. Wait, christians don't do luck, do we? ;) Prayers will be a good doze of comfort from you, my beloved siblings in the Spirit, to me.

With much love,Mink ^-^

"Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The everlasting God, the LORD,
The Creator of the ends of the earth,
Neither faints nor is weary.
His understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the weak,
And to those who have no might He increases strength.
Even the youths shall faint and be weary,
And the young men shall utterly fall,
But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint."

Isaiah 40:28-31